Thursday, April 27, 2023

My Journey to a Total Thyroidectomy

March 2020

A week before the metro was locked down, I went on a local tour at the National Museum and at Paco Park.

When the virus spread across the globe and the pandemic started, I was locked up in my place. Alone. I have no one but myself to do everything that needs to be done, chores and all. While supermarkets were open, I was scared to go out of the comforts of my unit. Positive cases were fast rising in the neighborhood. For the rare moments I go outside, I wear the mask and the shield




I have food and groceries delivered, but only up to the gates. Non-residents are not allowed inside the condo grounds. That made me push the cart from the gate to the elevator, and carry the load to my pantry. I tried to eat a healthy and balanced diet, mostly pescatarian. I would scout social media for kitchen hacks and store suggestions. For the most part of my community quarantine, I have ordered groceries from Landers, Marketplace, and SM Hypermarket. The easiest veggie I could source was cabbage.  

What I never knew was that cabbage can also be thyrotoxic. Once, I got a rotten one. Although it has been resolved by SM, I cannot help but somehow blame it.

In between our Work From Home (WFH) arrangement, we get called to be on duty at the airport twice a month. Garbed with complete PPE, we brace ourselves and face the influx of Filipinos from across the globe, mostly OFWs.

December 2020, the quarantine was relaxed. I flew to Cebu for a week. My mama noticed the slight difference of my neck. I brushed it off as just fats.

2021

Back to my place, in between Modified Community Quarantine, I scheduled myself for a pictorial. This is to mark my 50 years of existence in the universe.

I got dolled up and dressed up, and I posed for posterity.

Alert levels went up every now and then, so I celebrated my 50th alone, with video calls from family and friends.

It was my vanity that made me scrutinize all the shots taken. I saw that the left part of my neck was noticeably bigger than the right. I scheduled an appointment with the doctors, and had myself tested.

Blood test was normal. So I just kept on working, either WFH or in the airport.

When the vaccines were already available at the workplace, I got myself vaccinated. 

Even during the holidays, we reported to work and were called to assist in the US departures.



January 2022, I got hit by the Omicron variant. After that, I was never the same. And I noticed the left part of my neck grew noticeably. 

When I got well, I again got myself tested. This time, I had the FNA (fine needle aspiration) and sent the specimen to the lab. Biopsy result said benign, and the doctor told me removal of the thyroid is elective. I was anemic, and the cardio doctor ordered for blood transfusion.



While debating with myself if I should go under the knife or not, our beloved sister went to heaven. I kept flying back home every chance I got. Grief took a toll on my sanity and health. Still I tried to be strong.

All the stress somehow contributed to the enlargement of the thyroid nodules. I went back to the doctor and proclaimed I am ready for an operation. 

The endocrine doctor told me to come back after the holidays.

Meanwhile, I planned to go on a vacation. I told myself I dunno what happens next. 

1st Q 2023

I went on a tri-city tour (BKK-REP-PNH) and joined the family in the Visita Iglesia before I got myself confined in the hospital. 


April 13 2023, I had total thyroidectomy. I was under general anesthesia. The operation went well.


Today, 2 weeks since the operation, my wound has healed. I am still a bit weak, but I am getting back to my normal self.

Edit:
I had the biopsy results from the specimen and it is all good. The doctor has told me there is nothing to worry about.
All I need to focus on to is getting healed and being stronger.








Tuesday, October 20, 2009

raindrops and chills

running into you
a knife cutting through
a bleeding heart beneath the smile
so near, yet away by a thousand miles

cool. calm. and collected
got to appear unaffected
so many things to attend to
move on. and stop thinking of you.

silent click that echoes
more lamentations to the woes
a bang could have left less impact
not resounding as charm and tact

tic. tac. toe
showers that felt like snow
emptiness sending shivers. quivers.
flowing river. akin to my tears.